xxxlools19xxx's Journals on Buzznet http://xxxlools19xxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[Diary Of a Loser Kid]]> http://xxxlools19xxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/111002/diary-loser-kid/
Listing to music in my room
Thinking of you as I gloom
My life was easier until you walked in
Your hair, your eyes, your adorable grin
You walk Right by as if I don?xist
I?ot the type of girl you put on your list
People tell me he's a player
To me I think that's just one layer
And even if what they say I true
It will only make me more attracted to you
His friends dared him to ask me out
And as I stood there thinking about
Looking at his sparkling eyes
I thought to myself he's just another devil in the skies
He took my hand and sounded true
He said I really like to go out with you
Don?hink this is a game
You know my friends dared me that
But in my eyes you're stunning and that's fact
My hands are shaking as he holds them tight
Hearing those words is such a delight
OK I said what's the harm
How can anyone resist that incredible charm
The date went on we had so much fun
Two days later he was calling me hun
It turns out he likes me, he was just shy
And here I thought he was a manipulative guy
Two months later I'm his girlfriend
Our relationship seemed to have no end
I wanted it to last forever
I wanted him to be my lover
The calls stop, he's ignoring me at school
I stand in the halls looking like a fool
I cut myself as the thought of him closes my mind
I have many questions that answers I cannot find
Silence fills my empty room, for the tape has finished
So has our friendship has diminished
Cant you see what you're doing to me

 

Also by me n my sis

]]> Buzznet xxxlools19xxx 2007-02-03T23:50:47Z <![CDATA[Dying]]> http://xxxlools19xxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/111000/dying/ Losing myself, one bit at a time
Can't feel my hands, can't taste the wine
My hands are shaking, the glass fell on the floor
Can't take this for a second...not anymore
People are shouting, screaming and yelling
all trying to stop my body from swelling
"911, we need a doctor now!!"
"stop the twiching!", "i don't know how!"
I never thought this day would come
When my life would be over and done
All my life i lived in fear
now i can't make it up...death is near
Seems my life was just a sharade
Always making my smile fade
I see the light at the end of the tunnel, it's shining bright
it almost ruined my healthy sight
Death you came, what a relief!!
People are in shock, disbelief
I'm glad you came so fast, let's go
I never wanted my death to be slow
I'm too weak to have this fight
My body's dying..i feel so light
I don't know where I'am, but i'm flying
I look down to see my sister crying!!
Tears start rolling down my cheeks
as i wave goodbye
my heart stops its beats
I know now, it's my time to die
memories start flowing back
all i can see is turning black
Sometime, Someday, We'll meet again
I promise you now this is NOT the end
Death comes peacfully as i close my eyes
I wake up somewhere i don't recognize!
Open my eyes...Lift my ching
What is this place i'm in??!

 

Written by : Me and my awesome sis

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